Motherhood
I know my friends realize it but they seem entertained when I share. Motherhood has made me see things from a different perspective. My children are the highlight of my days, be it a stressful or relaxed one. So cliche right? But every word of it is true. Motherhood is no joke. Especially when you are juggling motherhood and a full time job.
Until today, my mother tells me that she cannot digest that her little girl is now a mother of 2. For someone who just bummed around at home, never helped in the kitchen, came downstairs to only have food laid on the table. Life was bliss. Today, I run around after my Energizer bunny of a son just making sure he has what he needs, forgetting that I also need to be there for myself. Meal times are 2 hours later than usual, interrupted sleep leaving behind eye bags and dark circles (thank god for eye liners).
On 26th May 2011, my life took a turn, a 180 degrees turn. A boy was born at 9.08 am at KPJ Damansara Specialist Hospital. I had to go through a C-section delivery. Until today, I cannot describe the feeling inside when I heard the first cry of my boy. It was priceless when I first held him in my hands. That was the day, my son, Aaditya Zachary Rohan entered our lives and is still making everyday special for us. He is now almost 2 and this scribbling is not about how he grew up. It's just an introduction to my 2 beautiful children whom you will be hearing a lot about over time. It's always nicer to put a picture to a face isn't it? This is him now when I asked him to make a funny face. Cuteness on a different level!
My husband (Rohan) and I had our days fully occupied with this little fella. It was a joy watching him crawl, walk, run. Watching him have his first fall wasn't exactly a joy. It was heart breaking. I cried me eyeballs out. I did. So sue me! :-)
8 months passed, and we were in for a surprise. A God-sent surprise which I did not know how to react to initially. Was I a horrible mother or a horrible person in feeling such, I truly am uncertain. I was pregnant again! This time the feeling was totally different from the first. Mixed emotions! I still remember sitting on my bed just not knowing what to do, and there was Rohan just seated next to me waiting for me to say something. I broke down. Why was he to be blamed, I don't know. At that point it just seemed like too much to handle. This pregnancy wasn't a breeze like the first one. It was tiring having to run around after Zachary as he was thirsting for my attention more and more as days passed. Mommy told me it was normal for him to feel that way as they can sense a new life that is about to be out soon. The space between me and the kitchen sink became larger and larger. I wanted this to be a surprise. After all, all of Zachary's clothes were of neutral colors. I bought him a mix of colors instead of going along with the blue for boys theory. I told my gynae to not tell me the gender of this baby. It was exciting as the pregnancy progressed. I began to feel an attachment to this little thing inside. Every time the family gathered, they would place bets guessing the gender of the baby. Rohan and I enjoyed watching this. Deep down inside, I'm not sure if I wanted a girl but I guess everyone wants a pair. I didn't want that to be in me because if it was otherwise, I didn't want to be disappointed. My disappointments would have made the baby feel a little of what we call rejection. I prayed each night for a healthy baby. One day while we were at the clinic, Rohan and I could not hold it any longer. I told Dr. Guna to just tell me. He looked at me, smiled and said "It's a princess". I teared. Tears of joy that couldn't be explained. Well, my brother may be able to confirm this but I am an emotional wreck. I cry watching episodes of Glee and Grey's Anatomy. So yes, you can imagine how I reacted to this. Somehow when I found it was a girl, I went on a pink frenzy every time I shopped. I just couldn't help it.
On September 28th 2012, my life took another turn. God was very kind to me, He gave a very precious dainty princess, and when I held her, it all came back to me. The feeling only a mother can understand. I looked into her eyes. They lit up. Apparently, babies in the olden days took a few days by the time their eyes fully open. My 2 lovelies came out with eyes open wide. We decided to name her Anisha Zara Rohan, a name that fit her perfectly. Yes you may notice their initials are identical,I took after my mom who was particular in naming her children. Geraldine Ann David and Gerard Alvin David. Good job mom! Thank god you changed your mind about Pamela. Phew! Now you can put a picture to the face of my princess who is a bundle, literally, a BUNDLE of joy. I'd like to call her 'Gundus'. But she shouldn't know it. So Dollface it is! This is her now at 6 months.
Until today, my mother tells me that she cannot digest that her little girl is now a mother of 2. For someone who just bummed around at home, never helped in the kitchen, came downstairs to only have food laid on the table. Life was bliss. Today, I run around after my Energizer bunny of a son just making sure he has what he needs, forgetting that I also need to be there for myself. Meal times are 2 hours later than usual, interrupted sleep leaving behind eye bags and dark circles (thank god for eye liners).
On 26th May 2011, my life took a turn, a 180 degrees turn. A boy was born at 9.08 am at KPJ Damansara Specialist Hospital. I had to go through a C-section delivery. Until today, I cannot describe the feeling inside when I heard the first cry of my boy. It was priceless when I first held him in my hands. That was the day, my son, Aaditya Zachary Rohan entered our lives and is still making everyday special for us. He is now almost 2 and this scribbling is not about how he grew up. It's just an introduction to my 2 beautiful children whom you will be hearing a lot about over time. It's always nicer to put a picture to a face isn't it? This is him now when I asked him to make a funny face. Cuteness on a different level!
My husband (Rohan) and I had our days fully occupied with this little fella. It was a joy watching him crawl, walk, run. Watching him have his first fall wasn't exactly a joy. It was heart breaking. I cried me eyeballs out. I did. So sue me! :-)
8 months passed, and we were in for a surprise. A God-sent surprise which I did not know how to react to initially. Was I a horrible mother or a horrible person in feeling such, I truly am uncertain. I was pregnant again! This time the feeling was totally different from the first. Mixed emotions! I still remember sitting on my bed just not knowing what to do, and there was Rohan just seated next to me waiting for me to say something. I broke down. Why was he to be blamed, I don't know. At that point it just seemed like too much to handle. This pregnancy wasn't a breeze like the first one. It was tiring having to run around after Zachary as he was thirsting for my attention more and more as days passed. Mommy told me it was normal for him to feel that way as they can sense a new life that is about to be out soon. The space between me and the kitchen sink became larger and larger. I wanted this to be a surprise. After all, all of Zachary's clothes were of neutral colors. I bought him a mix of colors instead of going along with the blue for boys theory. I told my gynae to not tell me the gender of this baby. It was exciting as the pregnancy progressed. I began to feel an attachment to this little thing inside. Every time the family gathered, they would place bets guessing the gender of the baby. Rohan and I enjoyed watching this. Deep down inside, I'm not sure if I wanted a girl but I guess everyone wants a pair. I didn't want that to be in me because if it was otherwise, I didn't want to be disappointed. My disappointments would have made the baby feel a little of what we call rejection. I prayed each night for a healthy baby. One day while we were at the clinic, Rohan and I could not hold it any longer. I told Dr. Guna to just tell me. He looked at me, smiled and said "It's a princess". I teared. Tears of joy that couldn't be explained. Well, my brother may be able to confirm this but I am an emotional wreck. I cry watching episodes of Glee and Grey's Anatomy. So yes, you can imagine how I reacted to this. Somehow when I found it was a girl, I went on a pink frenzy every time I shopped. I just couldn't help it.
On September 28th 2012, my life took another turn. God was very kind to me, He gave a very precious dainty princess, and when I held her, it all came back to me. The feeling only a mother can understand. I looked into her eyes. They lit up. Apparently, babies in the olden days took a few days by the time their eyes fully open. My 2 lovelies came out with eyes open wide. We decided to name her Anisha Zara Rohan, a name that fit her perfectly. Yes you may notice their initials are identical,I took after my mom who was particular in naming her children. Geraldine Ann David and Gerard Alvin David. Good job mom! Thank god you changed your mind about Pamela. Phew! Now you can put a picture to the face of my princess who is a bundle, literally, a BUNDLE of joy. I'd like to call her 'Gundus'. But she shouldn't know it. So Dollface it is! This is her now at 6 months.
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